15 October 2010, I have officially graduated from Nanyang Junior College. The very day I have been waiting for since day one in Nanyang. But at the end of the day it is weird (and inevitable) as I experience the amalgamate of joys and sorrows.

Junior College education has been constantly dubbed as the bane of my existence; the college itself has been metaphoric in being consecrated as the modern age shithole; and the two years were nothing less than a living nightmare. Yet I cannot deny that these two years had contributed to the maturity in me today; allowed me to look at the world in a different perspective; enlightened me on the fact that life is not a bed of roses, I won't met people who love me all the time.

Even so, I have to be thankful because at the end of the day, while I emerge from this rock bottom as a stronger person, I know I have made great friends. Friends forever? Let's keep it practical; but I can say that I will give it my all to maintain these bonds that I had made.

At the same time, when separation isn't fair and physical distance had been forcefully placed between all of us. It was nonetheless the best test of friendship. So many times, I wallow in self-depreciation; unable to move on from the past, unable to forget what you guys had to offer like no other; I retreat. I don't know how much we can compensate for lost time but again, I want to give it my best shot.

Then at the end of the day, somehow by the chance of fate, I realized that there is always a very important person who is always walking beside, with me. Through thick and thin; blood and sweat; tears and smiles. Not that I haven't realized this earlier, but this year when I get to see the importance of trust and friendship, it just made me want to be even more thankful to the higher powers up there. I trust this bond to defy time and space continent because our future is being determined by ourselves.

This may be a brokenly sentimental post to some people or complete gibberish to some others. But really, this is my interpretation and it doesn't have to make sense, at all.

it matters not who I am but who I want to be.

till next time.