I have this habit of reading my past posts occasionally and contemplate on what had changed and what had not. (This totally sounds like how I study history :O) And this time, I snicker in amusement while thinking how time has been ironic and merciless.

Due to my lack of blogging, I've always felt that my blog is new, but when I look back at the archive, this blog has been around for two years. Looking back at the 18 year-old me, I could only scoff at my own naivety.

Two years ago, I had never imagined myself moving out and staying in a hall. Never imagined myself to major in economics. Never imagined that I could grow stronger - accepting my flaws and putting down my pride at the right time.

However, I know that just like two years ago, my love for my family grows stronger by the day. My love for my friends will never wane. And I'm still thoroughly afraid to fall in love.

Two years ago, I had wanted to paint my room yellow by the age of 21, I'm afraid that is not going to come true :/ Speaking of which, mum has been going on and on about making a decision on how am I going to celebrate my 21st. She is really excited at the prospect of getting me a cake. Not just any cake, but a cake in the shape of the key, with the words "Key to Success" on it.

I love my mum. She was so excited when she told me about it today! She was like, "I've been thinking about this for nights and I've finally came up with the most suitable phrase for your cake!" what? "Well, you already have freedom and you have happiness! So I'm going to give you a key to success!" I'm not lying when I say that my entire world lite up when I heard that.

It's entirely heartening to know I'm always on mum's mind. And indeed, just like mum said, I already have my freedom and of course I have all the happiness in the world (: With a loving family and awesome friends, what else could I ask for? (yes people, I know what you guys will retort this with. My answer is, I'm still waiting.) I'm contented (: more than contented actually. Life's good(:

After a month of school, I've finally managed to come home and just chill with my family and it's awesome. Had dimsum lunch, made juice and nua-ed my life away today.

Although life does get tough, and I complain a lot (I know!). I think I'm doing pretty well so far. 

So, with a renewed resolution to put more positivity in my life, it's time to live forward (: 

it matters not who I am but who I want to be.

till next time.