24 April 2013
exams, exams everywhere.
and so it's the time of the semester again,
finals.
equated to readings, lack of time/sleep and
full blown procrastination
(which explains the blogging you see?)
anyway, on the issue of exam stress, my family just expressed their horror at the suicide case that happen in cinnamon college. they all turned to me and said, "ah girl, cannot study nevermind, don't need to die."
I think what hits me the most is my self-proclaimed sense of responsibility I have as a student - to graduate, find a decent job and let my family lead a reasonably comfortable life in their old age. My goal hasn't changed, but I guess what changed is my perspective on it. I'm not so hard-headed about it anymore.
At age 21, I made a few decisions, resolutions and added a few more principles to my life. I guess after hanging onto a string for so long, it feels so darn good to have come to a closure. The heart feels so much lighter. Life looks brighter, as I embrace what it is and what I am.
Life is a choice.
and I've started clearing up my grey areas (or at least I hope I did. haha)
“我背上背的比你还要多。”
It isn't about taking up the responsibility because I don't have a choice;
It is about taking up the responsibility because they believe in me and I believe in myself;
and that I respect the power bestowed upon me for me to be able to carry it out.
忠孝仁义。
at 22:37
