While I have yet to finish my tutorial readings for tomorrow, an essay due on tuesday, a reflection due on wednesday and a final-test/paper/thing on thursday; I am here blogging. As with all other instances, I only blog when I don't have the time for it. HAHA

Just as I was thinking about recording my daily life, to reprimand myself about how unproductive I really I am, I thought about how this blog had been so neglected that maybe I should just close it down. Yet, when I look back on my posts, I can't bear to close it down.

This blog reflects the most truthful part about me. The form of writing that is for me to read. There is no intended audience but me. It recorded my happiness, my sorrows, my resolution, my anger, my pain, my confusion, my determination; My Growth.

It's been almost 4 years since I tore down my old blogspot site and built this site. So, if there ever is another thought to tear this down, I will have to remind myself that this blog is what reminds me of what's left of my humanity. I can still feel and I want to be a better person - the sole reason for the very day I started this blog.

I was battling with my 'As' when I (re)started blogging; now I'm battling my final semester in university. While I am more alone because everybody else is either in a different course, in a different university, in a different university in a different country, not in university, or generally doing something; I actually don't feel so alone.

It is finally time to outgrow my childish demeanor by... looking for a job. Let's save this for when I come back from hong kong shall we.

The point I want to make is that despite the fact that many people say time is a lousy gauge of friendship (or any relationship for that matter), I beg to differ. Sometimes, a really really really bitsy issue can send you into contemplating about life; and who your true friends really are.

Those who are always here for me, are the people I've known for the longest time. They help without questioning. They listen without prying. They smile without anything to hide. They love without conditions.

To those of you who know who you all are, thank you.
To 11 & 9 & 5 years and counting worth of unconditional friendship, cheers.
I am alone, but I know I will never be truly alone.

it matters not who I am but who I want to be.

till next time.