Blogging becomes such an attractive chore during the exam period;
I have yet to even clear half of the readings for one of my modules, level 3000 no less.
May the odds forever be in my favour.

So I was talking about insomniac problem the other day and I'm happy to announce that, I've finally managed to get a good night's sleep yesterday (read: this morning) night.

I don't have an exact idea what caused the change but I can speculate.
I had a 7 hours skype session with bestfriend yesterday and it's been two months since we actually sat down and talked to each other face to face.
It was... liberating so to say - that I didn't have to explain everything in detail; she knows my every kink, every quirk and every reason behind my every choice.

Just like THIS ARTICLE had said, no man can match the bond between two woman.
Not just any woman mind you, it has to be that one special woman.

Everything comes and goes; but this friendship, this love, stays. It's staying for good, staying till the day I lie in a coffin and beyond. There are no burdens, no lies, no secrets in our relationship. There is nothing that cannot be said. Most importantly, there is nothing that cannot be understood. There are sometimes when your own principles are challenged as you step out of your comfort zone to do something for them, and you know it would be worth it.

We laugh at stupid things, make stupid inside jokes and puns, talk about life, about the future, about the past and everything else under the sun. We give each other more than enough freedom, we are alone when we are set out to achieve our own goals, but we are never apart. This is the one person in this universe that I will never feel bad for disturbing; will never hesitate to ask for her help.

I thank whoever who brought her into my life and I constantly remind ourselves that not everyone is as fortunate as us to have found someone who means so much to them.

To end this post, because I still have too much to study and too little time; and that there is too much to say.
We were once asked the question, "Between yourself and your best friend, who would you rather die first?"
I chose myself, because I believed that she'll live a more meaningful life than me; and that she'd be able continue living for me.
She chose me, because she said she'd rather be the one to bear the pain of losing someone she loves.

I have no words, but tears of happiness.
Here's to the cure to my insomnia and 9 days from sweet sweet freedom.
Rock on.

it matters not who I am but who I want to be.

till next time.